First of all, I just want to apologize to everyone that has been following the journey, I know I have not been posting for three months. And I am still catching up with everyone’s update as well. Congratulations to those who have became pregnant in the past couple months. Hang in there for those that are on the infertility journey. My heart goes out to you all.
To continue the birth story, in the morning when I woke up, the nurse told me about what happened to me during and post delivery. She said they are going to check my blood count and Dr said I might need blood transfusion. (So I was getting my blood checked morning and afternoon for those days I was at the hospital. )It was around 5:30 am or so, I REALLY want to see the baby, but I am still in labor and delivery unit and baby is upstairs in the nursery. I was really upset that I didn’t get to do skin to skin with my baby. That guilt didn’t go away even until now. Anyway, the nurse said she can ask them to bring the baby down. I was really excited. The moment they pushed the baby into my room was just amazing. Words can’t describe. I am looking at her and she looks just like me. She was licking her lips as she was hungry. I tried to breastfeed her but it was not successful. But I thought she might have gotten enough to eat. Then I cuddled with her. As much as I was enjoying the moment, I keep feeling like I was going to faint and I couldn’t really express myself because my body just will not follow the command of my brain.
Around 8 am they started transferring me to mother and baby unit upstairs. The morning nurse in there is not as patient but whatever. I practiced on changing her diaper and swaddling. Amy seems hungry all the time. Hospital bed made it not very easy to breastfeed. I was still hooked up to a lot of stuff including the catheter so I couldn’t fully sit up or get out of bed. Amy will not latch well (in January we found out the reason), I asked for lactation consultant to help. She came in and tried to help me out but she told me with my medical history and What just happened during delivery, it might be difficult to have colostrum and milk to come in, I will need to be more patient and continue to pump even when baby is not eating. So she got the hospital grade breast pump for me to use.
Throughout the day, I tried to feed her every two hours but she is very fussy at the breast and just will not latch longer than a couple minutes. I was pumping and then feed her with syringe. Until that night, the night shift nurse suggested to supplement with formula since baby seems very hungry. She finished the formula within seconds, my poor baby was so hungry. My mom stayed with me for the night. That night they took her to bathe, she smells so good after that.
Hubby came back in the morning, my in-laws came to visit in the afternoon. I felt super exhausted all day from the blood lost. The nurse said she was surprised I am even conscious after losing so much blood. I was not up for visitors really, anyway, just feel awful, everything hurts. They didn’t take my catheter out until that afternoon and I had to get help from nurse to get up and use the restroom.
I got discharged on Thursday, I was very ready to leave the hospital and go home. The first month at home was definitely challenging. I am going to break down to each topic(breastfeeding, sleep, bath) and share my experience in the upcoming posts.